Irrational

I have been thinking of getting a crazy different haircut than my normal. I have always had long hair (between bra strap and butt), so thinking of short hair would be drastic. I put my hair in a ponytail most of the time bc long gets in the way and my child can accidentally pull it. Once you cut it, you can't go back. I do realize that this is probably an irrational bipolar thought.

I went once to get a trim, from butt up to just below my shoulders. That was the PLAN, and told it to new hairdresser. WELL, she got scissor crazy and cut it to the bottom of my neck. It was so short it would be held in a hairband. I flipped out. Crying, hysterical, what now? so I drove to the mall, and bought a fake ponytail immediately in my own hair color and wore it daily for a long time until my hair could recoup. That has made me scared to ever cut it again. Not only short, but dyed weird and ugly cut. On a good note, for my wedding I wore the ponytail and it was beautiful with my hair flower comb. The wig section is beautiful and at least made the tears stop.

Torn mostly because how do you find a hairdresser to trust? Not like I can ask a celebrity in my smaller town and pay hundreds of dollars to look like a star. I don't know the real talent to the person with scissors. I need to wait a week and see if I still feel this way.